Not Convenient Anymore

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Not Convenient Anymore



character: Spike, implied Spike/Buffy, Spike/Angel and Angel/Buffy
time frame: at the end of AtS s5 "The Girl in Question"
written for: Fanfic Fiesta
word count: 194

prompt:
If I shed a tear, I won't cage it
I won't fear love
And if I feel a rage I won't deny it
I won't fear love
~ Sarah McLachlan // Fumbling Towards Ecstasy


Angel watched Spike leave the room and felt a sense of total desperation. How many times had Buffy walked away from him in the past? For that matter, how many times had Spike?

One time too many.

"Spike!" he called out, summoning his wayward childe back to him.

Spike turned but didn't return. Just stood in the lobby, looking back at his sire as if he could read his mind. He could. They had so much history, so much baggage, so much shared past. And Angelus was always predictable.

When Angel didn't speak, Spike's countenance turned uneasy, unsure for the first time in a long time about what he should do, what he should say. Maybe Angel was sure this time. Maybe this time it would last.

Maybe.

He knew what Angel wanted. He wanted the same thing he always wanted.

Someone to comfort him because he was hurting.

Someone.

Not Spike.

Just someone. And Spike was convenient.

Gods below, how he loathed that word. He would never be convenient again. Not for Angel, not for Buffy, not for anyone. He turned and walked toward the elevator.

He's holding out for love this time.



The End